Recap of Winter Semester '09- Men

Where do I even begin?
So much has happened since I came back to school this semester, especially in the men's department.
I had a few crushes, some were more than just crushes ...some were good, some were assholes. No surprises there.
I'm just going to go through the more significant ones this semester. They're not in any specific order.

Mystery Man: Our paths always crossed. It was REALLY bizzare, to say the least. I'd run into him especially after I had changed plans...so what I'm trying to say is, if I had kept my original plans, I would not have run into him. He is so handsome. He dresses really well too. Although we always made intense eye contact whenever we ran into each other, we never ever talked... Even on my last day at residence, the last minute (literally the last minute- I was handing over my keys) we ran into each other, looked into each other's eyes, but never said a word. Something tells me that I'm going to regret not talking to him...

Blush Crush: He made me blush beat red- more red than after I consume massive doses of vodka. That is saying a LOT, because I get one of the most severe cases of Asian blush when I drink. He was so gorgeous that I could not even look at him straight. Whenever he smiled at me, my heart skipped a beat- I know, so corny, but it is true. I couldn't even talk to him properly. The first time we talked (I ran to my room after and wrote every detail of the conversation in my journal) was our last time. He was nowhere to be seen after...then I moved out of residence.

My "Friend": He and I had a thing even in high school. We were "really good friends" but we always were more ...and we knew it. Before I came back to school this semester, we even talked about the possibility of dating. Well, all that turned sour when I drunk dialed him at a club, asked him to come over. He spent the night. We didn't do anything physically (not even a kiss) because I got scared. I told him that we were just friends, and that we couldn't and shouldn't be anything more. I also told him about how I was saving myself till marriage. He couldn't understand. After all, he had slept with a lot of women ever since I could remember. In the morning, he said he was going to repark his car. He never came back. We didn't talk for the next couple of months. He tried to contact me, but I blocked him on MSN and deleted him off my phone so I wouldn't make the fatal mistake of drunk dialing him again. Then one day, I went on Facebook chat, and he messaged me. ARGH! I searched for the "block" function on Facebook chat. No such thing. We talked. I told him exactly how I felt about him just leaving that morning, how much he had hurt me and disrespected me. He said he left because he was so embarassed. No one else has turned him down like that before...apparently. He apologized. We made up. We're "friends" again.

Like you Longtime: I had a HUGE crush on this one in Gr.11. We reconnected over this semester. We would go to mass together then go to the library. One of the things I really want to do with a serious boyfriend is to go to church together. We studied really well together too. My feelings for him flooded back rapidly the moment I saw him walking towards me at the subway station. Then one day, it all stopped. I would text him, he'd text back but nothing beyond that. What did I do wrong?

The Gentleman: Ah... my first gentleman. I still have the champagne corks from the bottles he brought over to my place. He had even brought glasses with him. It was one of the most romantic things that a guy had done for me, so when I was cleaning my room to move out of residence, I couldn't throw them out. Before him, I hadn't dated in a long time. I had some flings here and there when I was travelling, but nothing really close to real dating. Needless to say, things were so awkward in the beginning, and it continued to be a little uncomfortable throughout. No matter how great he was, I just couldn't be myself around him. The walls didn't tumble down. It was nobody's fault that it didn't end up working out. We just didn't connect, that's all. He was a great guy. I look forward to being friends with him.

That's pretty good for four months, huh?

I'm excited for what's in store for me over the summer. :)

With love, faith and hope,

SW